Last night, I was brought to my knees, literally. I've been warning my 5 year old about walking in front of me, especially when I'm carrying something, and last night, we were walking in to a store, I was carrying his 3 year old brother who was distraught, and suddenly, in the middle of the drive up in front of the store, I feel something under me, and I begin to go down. I can feel something soft beneath me as my five year old collapses under me, and I have just enough time to soften my fall while using my hands to both slow my fall and keep the three year old from hitting the back of his head on the asphalt. The three year old came out shaken but unhurt, and the 5 year old and I had some scrapes, bumps, bruises, and aches. But we were all right. Truth be told, it was a wake up that I needed. I was getting tired, it was ten at night, and I had a ways to go to get home. Strange as it is to say, this also got me thinking of my relationship with Jesus. Sometimes I'm too proud and unaware of what's around me, and so I walk blind in to a problem. Many times, these situations bring me to my knees, and it hurts. But this is the wake up call I need to see Christ clearly. All too often, I'm too proud to go to Jesus, and I, like a stubborn 5 year old, stumble in to something that I can't get out of. It's only when I'm on my knees and asking for help that I can truly see the way out. Pride and the Kingdom have no place together, it's only through humility and on our knees that we can truly understand Christ. Psalm 119:102 says "your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path." In other words, I'm not rushing ahead, I'm keeping humble, and focused on God's word and will. I'm taking life one step at a time, humble, and in step with the Lord. I need to stop, slow down, and focus on what the Lord is doing and has done. Otherwise, I'm just spinning my wheels. I'm acquiring trophies, and setting myself up for a fall. It is through humbling myself before Christ that I can see clearly, and focus on where I'm supposed to go. Psalm 119 Mem
97Oh how I love your law! It is my meditation all the day. 98Your commandment makes me wiser than my enemies, for it is ever with me. 99I have more understanding than all my teachers, for your testimonies are my meditation. 100I understand more than the aged,h for I keep your precepts. 101I hold back my feet from every evil way, in order to keep your word. 102I do not turn aside from your rules, for you have taught me. 103How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth! 104Through your precepts I get understanding; therefore I hate every false way.
105Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. 106I have sworn an oath and confirmed it, to keep your righteous rules. 107I am severely afflicted; give me life, O LORD, according to your word! 108Accept my freewill offerings of praise, O LORD, and teach me your rules. 109I hold my life in my hand continually, but I do not forget your law. 110The wicked have laid a snare for me, but I do not stray from your precepts. 111Your testimonies are my heritage forever, for they are the joy of my heart. 112I incline my heart to perform your statutes forever, to the end.i